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November 2010 .. 3:12am
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||[ Tuesday 28th
February 2006 .. 10:59pm
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:33:43 PM): LOL
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:33:48 PM): you know phil
killerrforhire (10:34:00 PM): how did you get this information
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:34:06 PM): because i know phil
killerrforhire (10:34:18 PM): what did phil say about me
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:34:53 PM): well it was phil, me and gartsman
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:35:00 PM): gartsman and i were spending valentines day together
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:35:04 PM): and phil asked if i knew you
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:35:08 PM): in a weird way though
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:35:11 PM): he was describing you
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:35:17 PM): saying girl
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:35:18 PM): my age
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:35:21 PM): obsesssed with the smiths
killerrforhire (10:35:29 PM): thats it?
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:35:31 PM): and i laughed and went "JESSICA!"
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:35:33 PM): pretty much
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:35:35 PM): that and you liked him
killerrforhire (10:35:40 PM): thats true
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:36:41 PM): phil's pretty cool
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:36:43 PM): good music
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:36:48 PM): i'm comfortable around him.
killerrforhire (10:37:07 PM): conversations with him are pretty awkward mostly because of the way we met
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:37:15 PM): how did you two meet?
killerrforhire (10:38:03 PM): he just imed out of nowhere one day and we started talking. one day he said that he hangs out at the starbucks on mason/devonshire a lot but i didnt believe him. i went there and he just comes up to me and says DO I KNOW? ONLINE PERHAPS? and gave me a Unicorns CD.
killerrforhire (10:38:11 PM): Do I know you****
killerrforhire (10:38:20 PM): ive never met someone so random EVER
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:39:22 PM): hahahha
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:39:24 PM): he's so amazing
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:39:29 PM): when we were hanging out
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:39:31 PM): we bumped into rhett
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:39:41 PM): and he's just like "you ever been to the scene?"
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:39:46 PM): just asking random fucking questions.
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:39:49 PM): phil is great though.
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:40:19 PM): out of all of gart's friends, i like phil the most.
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:40:32 PM): nick i've only met once. and bryan has no personality and tiffany is a drunk.
killerrforhire (10:40:38 PM): haha
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:41:14 PM): and yay! i get to see all of them this weekend
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:41:21 PM): and they're probably all going to be high!
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:42:59 PM): i'm preparing myself for this
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:43:04 PM): so i don't flip out when i see them.
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:43:08 PM): still have the hots for phil though?
killerrforhire (10:43:24 PM): well, i havent seen him since january, and we didnt even talk
killerrforhire (10:43:45 PM): so i dont know. probably.
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:43:56 PM): i wonder if he still works at starbucks
killerrforhire (10:44:29 PM): i dont think he does. i go to the one he worked at very often and i dont see him there anymore.
P0RN0 SPAM R0B0T (10:44:51 PM): weird. i'll ask him sometime.
||[ Sunday 26th
February 2006 .. 10:22pm
I understand that my reflections are unconventional, hard to follow, and have no beginning, middle, or end. I also understand that I am relying on other, more talented writers to describe the emotions that I and possibly Elie went through in the course of Night. What I am trying to say in the reflections and the CD enclosed is that I find his loss of faith to be the major theme in the story. I cannot describe to you what I think faith is other than a persevering sense of optimism in the face of adversity. Or as Depeche Mode says it in “...And Then”, “to think that things couldn’t turn out worse.” I don’t know whether losing you faith is “giving up” or “realizing you’re the only one in control of your fate”. Or maybe realizing that man and man alone is in control of his fate and most certainly not God. I am not atheist nor do I claim any specific religion. I believe in God and that is enough to help me sleep at night. Despite my foul mouth and despite the numerous, blasphemous songs I listen to everyday, I have this feeling that no matter how much trouble I’ll get in, there will always be a way out. Of course, I am a naive 15 year old girl living in the suburbs. I have not seen what Elie has seen. I have not gone through what Elie has gone through. I do not blame him. I completely understand him and would have done the same. Not probably. Just definitely. I find it amazing that I can think like this when atrocities are being committed everyday. From a distateful Danish cartoon that people are getting killed over to not having the right amount of melanin in your skin. But, as I’m writing this at ten o’ clock on a Saturday night, maybe I’m not as optimistic as I thought I was. Despite all the efforts to stop genocide, homicide or anything with the suffix “-cide”, I think it will always occur. Or to try to sound deep and meaningful, hate is the only thing man has power over. Love is something Divine, something controlled completely by God. Hate is completely man-made and that’s why God can’t stop it. He does not know it.
||[ Monday 21st
March 2005 .. 7:26pm
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